I was never over him.

Now that he is gone, my heart aches. I now know I am not in love at this time. I am just going through the motions. I can NOT stop thinking about him. I am remembering all the good times we had. From our first date....to the last fight. I can still recall the last words I said to him. It hurts. My heart hurts. My chest hurts. No comfort from the asshole. What did I expect? I know one more person I better have a heart to heart with before it is too late. I look at his picture of him, his son and his ex and think that could have been me in that picture. (with a son) a child of my very own. I made a huge mistake. I broke it off and ran off with the worst mistake of my life and he turned around and married her. If I could have done things different I would have. I should have. Now I have to make things right.

I'm free

finally the day has come! I sure have missed doing what I want to do......I just want to be with my mom.....and now I will be the boss...scary.....sorry random thoughts more later