Never settle for less than you deserve...Demand the BEST & accept nothing LESS!

I was never over him.

Now that he is gone, my heart aches. I now know I am not in love at this time. I am just going through the motions. I can NOT stop thinking about him. I am remembering all the good times we had. From our first date....to the last fight. I can still recall the last words I said to him. It hurts. My heart hurts. My chest hurts. No comfort from the asshole. What did I expect? I know one more person I better have a heart to heart with before it is too late. I look at his picture of him, his son and his ex and think that could have been me in that picture. (with a son) a child of my very own. I made a huge mistake. I broke it off and ran off with the worst mistake of my life and he turned around and married her. If I could have done things different I would have. I should have. Now I have to make things right.

I'm free

finally the day has come! I sure have missed doing what I want to do......I just want to be with my mom.....and now I will be the boss...scary.....sorry random thoughts more later

no early release

still stuck on house arrest...I have done everything they have asked, never messed up and now they refuse me. I should have known better because of my previous profession. bullshit. I will be reevaluated in four months. I am asking to go home in march. I wamt to be with my mom on her birthday. I talk her almost every night just to check up on her. it is not the same. Janet needs to OD already. both me and vick are so tired of her shit....if she hurts my mom I swear I will kill her and I don't care about doing the time....home life sucks. hopefully change is a coming..I DESERVE BETTER THAN THIS. I DESERVE TO BE LOVED. getting ready to make some plans not going to live like this again...been there done that.so glad that fucker is dead going to take a zanax much needed and try to lay down.....

Thanksgiving Photo Gallery - Photo 26 of 92 by Little Lynzee Lou™ ~♥His♥~ - MySpace Photos

Thanksgiving Photo Gallery - Photo 26 of 92 by Little Lynzee Lou™ ~♥His♥~ - MySpace Photos

1. Who was your first prom date? A guy named Russell.. His Junior Prom, my Senior prom, his Senior Prom.....all in Pink....who would have thought he turned out to be Gay?

2. Do you still talk to your first love? No.would love to ....catch up again

3. What was your first alcoholic drink? California Coolers from a two liter......

4. What was your first job?waitress then for real I worked at Taco Bell

5. What was your first car? '71 Plymouth Scamp....with my own paint job Black with red racing stripe and green vinyl roof ....

6. Who was the first person to text you today? No one yet

7. Who was the first person you thought of this morning? I don't think until I have had my coffee....

8. Who was your first grade teacher? Sister Mary Margaret

9. Where did you go on your first flight in a plane? Virginia.

10. Who was your first best friend and do you still talk? Amy is my BFF !! I miss her EVERY SINGLE DAY! She lives too damn far away

11. Where was your first sleepover? Cousin Mikes

12. Who was the first person you talked to today? Jim....The person I am living with.

13. Whose wedding were you in for the first time? My own

14. What was the first thing you did this morning? smoked the first of many cigs.

15. What was the first concert you went to? Bob Segar....My mom believes concerts are the devils work.... I have only been to three in my life time Segar, ZZ Top and Kid Rock

16. First tattoo? one on my chest a little rose with the exs' name glad I got that covered up now way too many

17. First piercing? My ears--I tricked my grandmother into signing the permission slip--my dad was PISSSSSSEEEEED

18. First foreign country you went to? Canada.

19. First movie you remember seeing? something with Clint Eastwood.....

20. What state (province) did you first live in? Ohio

21. Who was your first room mate? ex husband....huge mistake first of many

22. When was your first detention? High school.

23. When was your first kiss? some random neighborhood boy-

24. What is one thing you would learn, given the chance? to Surf

25. Who will be the next person to post this? No clue. But if you post it on your blog, leave a comment here so I can check it out! :)

time for a change

well six months down and six months to go and I will be somewhat free....It is time for a big change. I can not tell you now. This computer is not private and my husband does not know how to stay off off shit that does not belong to him. don't see him for six days he walks in the door and run right to MY computer so he can catch up with his mobster buddies....nice life I have going right now....I am not happy. I know when I can get permission to travel I am going home! maybe for a short visit?I need to see my friend (one minute, one hour, one day. whatever just need to see her..... then I am going to see my cousin. I need a sounding board. call me